really bad day.
fucking day.
bullshit.
crap.
screwed day.
treated like waste.
like rubbish.
like a toy.
like a meaningless and insignificant piece of dirt.
whether i'm here or not,
it doesnt even make a difference.
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Wednesday, December 16, 2009
hehe haha hoho.
im sorry,
i'm SUPER DUPER UBER HAPPY LA CAN?
NUMBER ONE:
me and dardar got to spend the whole day together and spend time together..n.n
NUMBER TWO:
im talking to my hongkong friend now!! :D
muahahahaha~
NUMBER THREE:
im gonna be baking mmmmm-cookies this sunday!!
teehee~
of course happy right?xP
haha,
kay so today dar came to my hse around 11 plus..
to "fetch" me..
haha,in the end we stayed in the hse till like 1140 or 1145?
ahahahahaha
so happy..
cos get to spend time with dar..
just talking and looking each other..
its good enough..
cos i really miss him so much..
esp during my holiday lor..
hmm so after that..
we went to bedok inter first..
haha,dar had to change money and top up ez-link card=]
i needed to buy comb=]
after that,
we took bus 196 to parkway..
thn go lunch lunch..
haha,dardar ate dessert WITH our lunch LOL.
in the end dardar too full..
so he didnt feel comfortable for a while..:(
hmm but nvm laa,
dar now okay le=]
hmm so after lunch,
the sky abit dark sia.
thn we were like contemplating whether to go not lor.
haha in the end we still go=]
we walked to ECP.
when we got thr,
we just sat on the bench at the beach and simply enjoy the sea breeze together..n.n
hahas,we've been wanting to do that for like so so so long..
hehe and we got to do it today..
we went to the beach together..n.n
hmm yeah..i like=]
hope dar did too =X
hehe after a while..
we decided to go rent the bikes and go CYCLING!!
teehee~
haha instead of renting the bikes,
i needed go tie hair ._.
so yeah,go macs the toilet to tie=]
thn i realised..
so sad sia..
my hair so long liao now,
thn tmr have to go trim cos the top part damn thick.
lol hope wont shorten to much xP
hahas so after go rent bikes.
haha,dar pay=] XD
LOL.beginning of cycling,
i was like having the jitters again..
like dont dare dont dare cycle liddat sia.
hehe but in the end still cycle ma xP
thn i found out,
DAR ACTUALLY LAST TIME TOOK ONE WEEK TO LEARN CYCLING...
hahahaha super proud of myself xP
cos i like took close to an hour that time.
LOL.
haha dar no offence laa..
at least now you so good liao=]
hmm so we cycled for around half an hour or so,
thn decided to take a break cos pi gu tong XD
and also it started to pour like mad.
rested at macs..
actually i was tired already,
didnt want to cycle anymore cos no more strength liddat,
hmm but i felt that dar really wanted to cycle some more cos he around one year nvr cycle ler..
so i just tell dardar just carry on cycling=]
hmm
sorry dardar,
i know i nvr tell you that i didnt want to carry on,
but i really wanted to do it for you=]
AND I NEVER REGRET HORHOR..
dont keep saying i regret laa kay?n.n
hahas,
we cycled pass that time the geog "excursion" that area..
thn the seafood area..
thn dar brought me to the 'Bedok Jetty' to take break..
that place very nice actually..
hahas i like mountain turtle sia,
nvr see thr before..
hahas cos my family dont really go ECP de ma..
so yeah,
THANK YOU DARDAR SO MUCH FOR BRINGING ME TO PARTS OF ECP I NVR GO BEFORE n.n
after resting at the bedok jetty thr,
we headed back to the bike rental area thr..
haha reach thr de timing just nice=]
cycle down for a few more min tgt thn turn back & return ler=]
hahas..actually we wanted to go macs wash hands and sit down nia,
in the end,
dardar hungry..go buy food=]
i SUPERR shock la xP
didnt know dardar's lunch digested liao xp
hahahahahaha,
after eating,
two of us slowly walk back to underpass..
hehe on the way back,
we walk on the beach together..
hehe so sweet..
i like that time so much..n.n
really=]
teehee,we drew some stuff on the sand too n.n
hmm dar made a whole trail of his"footprints" XD
haha,we slowly alk back to parkway to take bus..
waited for so long sia.
finally 196 came=]
bussed back to bedok inter=]
hehe,dar was singing during the bus ride n.n
so cute xP
so yeap,
dar sent me all the way home safely again n.n
thn papa came home so dar couldnt stay too long..
hmm miss dardar le..xP
hope dar can online asap=]
tmr morning have to wake up early again lor.
cos need travel go cut trim hair.
LOL.
and tmr have tuition!!
hehe,can see dardar n.n
i love you n.n
some photos next=]
hmm this was at the bench at the beach=]
my hair super messy laa,
WIND BLOW DE...XD
this was in macs after cycling=]
LOL dar look so fierce right?
actually no laa,
HE EATING WHILE TAKING THE PHOTO.
cute laa you=]
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hmm dardar...
i dont regret a single thing today alright...
you really made my day..
you know this morning,
when i woke up,
i kept smiling to myself like guai ka..xP
you know why?
cos i miss you so much and i was so so so glad i could see you and spend the day with you n.n
and guess what..
i enjoyed every single moment of the time being with you..n.n
cycling with you was great..
you brought me to nice places and taught me how to enjoy cycling n.n
hehe,i like walking on the beach hand in hand with you the most..n.n
it was really sweet..
we've both waited so long to do that..
and we did n.n
i love you so much..
thank you so so much for bringing me so much joy in my life..n.n
I LOVE YOU.
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Tuesday, December 15, 2009
haha,
im back from my last overseas trip of the year le n.n
went to hongkong with choir and now just came back from bintan with my family n.n
I MISS MY DARDAR SO SO SO MUCH LAAAAAA.
hmm,yeap,
we've been tgt 8 months le..
hehe its like,
shuo chang bu chang,shuo duan ye bu duan..
hahas,we happy tgt can le ma n.n
hmm so yeah,
this is the first time,
i went overseas thn a few days nvr get to sms dar at all..
cos go overseas with parents ma,
cannot tou tou sms or anything..
so sad..
but nvm la,
im back le n.n
hahas..
all the way through my holiday,
im always thinking bout dar..
miss him so much...
lucky i brought the bearbear dardar gave me n.n
at least bearbear can pei me n.n
btw,SORRY FOR PANGSEH YOU AT LAST NIGHT'S TUTION DAR!!
haha,the funny thing was,
last night,
i was like worried dar would forget that he have a.maths tuition xP
wanted to like sms him to remind him sia,
but cannot,hehe lucky he remembered n.n
im so glad to be back..
hahas,btw,
I BOUGHT BUBBLE GUM FOR DIDI.
hope he like~
hahas.
hopefully dardar de mama will let him go out tmr=]
thn i can see my dar..
i miss him so much..cant wait to see him!!
dardar,
you know?
during the holiday,
somehow,
i keep talking bout you in front of my family n.n
and on sunday morning,
i did feel disappointed,
but i know you will really try de,
so i dont blame you de kay n.n
i left happily,
i rather be happy so that i'll really look forward to coming home and closer to you n.n
and i really was wor n.n
when my parents told me we will reach s'pore around four plus,
i was simply OVERJOYED!
really!
cos i was expecting us to like reach only at six to seven plus sia TT
haha,in the end i got to read all the smses you sent me and quickly contact you much earlier!!
woohoo~
im so so so glad..
and dar kept your promise...
hehe thank you my dardar for everything..
i love you n.n
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Thursday, December 3, 2009
im pissed,
im hurt,
im upset,
im crying.
let me cry out,
cos i just cant take in any longer,
i really cant,
im bursting,
bursting out in tears.
i really dont know what i can do.
i really really dont know.
this is going to kill me.
TWO DAYS.
wow.
i know i went for four days..
but just these two days,
is enough to kill me.
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