my heart's shattered.
seriously.
just when i thought that it was starting to heal.
it broke again.
it was already full of wounds,stitches.
now all the wounds have been reopened.
and now there are new wounds.
its aching.
bleeding.
bleeding profusely.
i really thought i would have made that decision that would break us both.
but in the end,
i decided to hold on.
its going to be a really tough relationship from now on.
but i dont want to regret.
hopefully we'll both be strong enough.
but things are really going to be very different now.
everything's already changed.
it was the biggest scare i've ever been through.
this time,
i REALLY thought our relationship would end.
i felt that there was no other way,
no other choice other than ending everything.
everything we once had.
although we've decided to stay together,
in my heart,
i still have a feeling something will happen soon.
and that thing,would REALLY bring everything to an end.
how many MORE blows can this relationship take?
or maybe,how many more blows can I take?
i really dont know.
everything is all unstable now.
my mind is in a whirl,
i cant get my mind off you,
off what happened yesterday.
the thought of it stabs right into my heart.
stabbing again,again and again.
my heart is bleeding and is hurting.
this time,
i truly think that the wounds are never going to heal,
and the bleeding would just go on.
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